it hurts!
Wednesday, June 8, 2011 ♥
I've overestimated myself! haih~ i actually thought that i can overcome it soon and got no reason to cry for. but, i cried once and once. i thought i can do my daily works as usual but i can't pay attention in everything, i can't sleep and i can't eat D; i want to sleep, but once i close my eyes, the memories recalled, i want to eat, but i don't feel hungry, once i eat, i feel to vomit.. i think i need a treatment, i should go for swimming tonight.. i know i can feel free and think of nothing in the water. i know i have to get used to my new life without him. i know i have to be strong enough to face the problems that will come to me because no one will share my problems anymore. i always prefer to be alone and i know i have not many true friends. sometimes i want to look for someone to talk to, but i turn over my phonebook, i found no one to talk to. do you think i am pity? yea i am, but i DON'T NEED YOU TO PITY ME! i don't need you to pity me and give me your love! i don't need you to feel guilty because both of us have accepted the decision! i know, you will just suffer if you stay with me. so i'll let you go. :)
Name : ♥ Yoshiko ♥