nothing can be found..
Thursday, May 5, 2011 ♥
hmm, it's time to update again.. don't know why, it's an emo season now! everyone is suffering with emo things, emo feel and emo mood.. seriously, there are too many things are placed in my heart and i have never tried to say it out.. the problem makes me recalled something about my past.. since the end of my previous relationship, i've been suffered for around 8-9 months.. in that 9 months, i tried to find out all the memories, all the things that are only for us, specially for us.. but, i realised that there has nothing left.. it's sucks when you have nothing memorable left after you've been stayed with your loved one for so long.. sometimes i will think, am i always the one who put more effort in my relationship? am i always the one who obey whatever my partner wants me to be? i always dreamed to have a memorable date, or event which to fill up my memories but it's only i wish to do so.. my mom said that i'm not suitable to fall in love.. my mom knows me much she knows how i feel, and knows what i am always thinking of.. i really need a rest, i don't know what am i thinking of.. i am a girl, i need some romance and some sweetness in my relationship.. i'm not that tough and strong actually.. i need safety and protection more than other girls because i'm that kind of girl who are lack with confidence.. yea, i admit that this habit isn't good, but i can't change it! there are too many people who are better than me, prettier than me, nicer than me, polite than me, gentle than me.. how can i compete with those people? hais, i keep on pretending that i am strong, i am happy but my heart is actually fragile.. i am showing smiley face always to hide my unhapiness.. hais, just stop here, going out now.. bye..
Name : ♥ Yoshiko ♥