oh yeah~

the 1st of my upper form exam has finally over..

i had burned the midnight oil for this week..

and tonight!

it's time for me to go for SHOPPING!!

wait, i'm out of topic now, lets back to the topic.. =p

i have never left my papers blank in the past a few years of my secondary school life..

but now, I DO!

the papers were blank, and the time were wasted too..

i did try my best to answer the questions, but my brain has nothing appeared..

although i did recall what the teachers taught me before the exam.

still, i couldn't answer because all of the subjects need FORMULA!

there were some formulas turned up in my mind..

but they turned up in an incomplete form..

URGH!

i am regret why didn't i put more effort in the past a few months..

i wondered how did i waste my time before the exam..

i did not revise at home after school..

day by day, nothing gained and my brain is still very empty..

but i think, if i start to work hard now, it's still not late yet for me..

like what i think, form 4 is not a honeymoon year..

there will have no enough time for me to do revision when i were in form 5 next year..

okay, it's time to drop that.. :)

my lovely mother, sometimes i love her much but sometimes i don't..

why say so?

she will keep on nagging me always..

keep on repeating every night, every time she meets me..

in the car, listening the "song" which sings by my mom..

that is not a nice song for sure..

and i love her much because she is always my best listener..

once i have any problem, i will shout, " mom! can you have your dinner with me?"

once she hears that, no matter how tired she is after work, she will slowly walk out from her room to the dining room..

she sits beside me and listens to me quietly, gives my advices after she has listened my problem..

sometimes i will hug my mom tight and cry on her shoulder..

she will also hug me tight and ask me not to cry, and use her thumb to wipe the tears on my face..

i feel so warm and safe in her arms..

i always feel unsafe in my life..

and what i am always looking and wishing for is the feel that my mom gives me..

i need it much no matter in my life, my relationship, my friendship or other else..

after cry, i will hug my mom again, and say thanks mom, and sorry..

sorry for disturbing and listening to me..

and then, she will push me away, look at me seriously and say with smiley face..

sha gua, you are my daughter, you can tell me anything when you need me..

i am always willing to listen to you.. :)

thanks mommy! i love you!

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