i'm so sick now..

sick of my life..

i can't stand it anymore..

i almost collapse now!

too many things affected my emotional recently..

i am lost control!

i can't control my mind, my emotional..

sometimes day dream and choose to be quiet, sometimes i am totally crazy..

laugh out loud, shout out loud and keep on talking, non-stop talking..

i can change my character in a moment..

maybe i've kept too much things in my heart..

and i have no way to release..

too many things to worry, and maybe it is only i think too much..

it means that I CARE!

I REALLY CARE!

but it seems that i am the only one who cares..

feel to cry now, but i wont..

i will control myself, not to be like that..

keep on telling myself i am okay, i will be fine soon..

but I AM NOT! TOTALLY NOT!

i am just a normal girl..

i need cares from the others too!

i'm not that strong as how i think i am..

sometimes i really think to surrender..

but it has just started not long before..

it will be very hard for me to face it to handle it..

i don't want to lose..

i don't want to give up..

so i forced myself to get used to it..

just do what i think i should do..

but if the ending will not be a good ending, then i will give up..

at least i've tried my best to do my best..

and i will have no regret if i failed..

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