history of my life..
Tuesday, September 7, 2010 ♥
going 2 pustaka everyday with different fren..
recently i go there, sure i will choose the seat by the window..
when i'm tired, i can look outside..
i saw couples held hands n walked around the park..
i saw parents brought their son o daughter to the swimming pool..
i saw the students went 2 parkson the have their lunch..
n the most important is i can look at the view outside!! :)
everytime when the historic names stuck my brain, i'll feel emo..
y will cause this?
is that because i miss him?
i wondered..
but i think something that's good n u've lost it..
u don't need 2 miss it..
u can commemorate it but DON'T MISS IT!!
n i tell it 2 myself, he choosed 2 let me go..
it means he doesn't appreciate me..
n i don't need 2 miss him so much..
maybe those memories are wonderful, they're memorable..
but they has passed..
all became the history of my life..
a kind of experience..
he gave me a lot, and also brought away a lot..
i think i will lost connect with him soon..
since i know he wont find me anymore..
my house num had changed, n my phone num will change soon.. =)
so if he try 2 find me, he can't..
i dono the decision 2 change my num is correct o not..
but, if i wan 2 start a new life, i have 2 do it..
maybe i'm escaping from the problems..
but that's the only way 2 let me feel better..
the feeling isn't good to miss something that u love but u can't own it..
so i prefer 2 think it as a memorable thing but not a memorable person..
i recall the memories but not the person..
i think of those memories but not the character..
don't nostalgia with the person n u can 4get the love in the shortest time..
ya, i admit i'm escaping..
i'm keeping myself away from the problem..
but is there any better way 2 let me feel better?
don try 2 tell me "time can cure everything"
THAT DOESN'T WORK 4 ME!!
n i did try my best 2 face the problem myself o even with him..
and what's the result?
i cried because scolded by him..
i'm a HUMAN n i have my PRIDE!!
not just u have..
so pls don think i'm always the wrong 1 n scold me however u like!!
everything happened n the both side should be responsible 4 it..
not just i'm only the 1 to in charge of that..
please, think of what u did..
u shouldn't lie me, n if u'd forgotten u should explain 2 me!!
u shouldn't leave me alone n think that i'm the 1 who cause this..
if u really try 2 leave me, then pls do it totally..
don try 2 find me, date me, o even tell me that u still love me..
u do that just make me feel that we're still possible..
u do that just hurt me more..
so pls....
STOP CONTACT WITH ME!!
Name : ♥ Yoshiko ♥